So I have been saving this post for a while because it is a fairly "painful" one for me to post.
Since January, when we played Pebble, I really feel I have gradually stopped enjoying the game of golf more and more. I like who I play with, but I don't like how I am playing. What irks me more is that out of our group, I probably practice more than anyone -- but it has no effect. I'm not playing any better. I'll have mometns -- rounds that come out of nowhere and are great -- wonderful ball striking days. But on average now, my scores are creeping up.
And it's really getting to me.
Today, for example...we head out and my VERY first shot is a repeat of the past few weeks. I hit my driver, pull it a bit and get unlucky and hit a branch which sends the ball out of bounds. First lost ball. Hole 2: same deal, hit a pull out of bounds. Second lost ball. I drop a ball and take my 9i and try to hit a draw around the trees between myself and the hole. Hit it perfect, it sails over the green, hits the hill, and goes OB across the street. Third lost ball. We're now at 5 over, and one sleeve of balls is gone.
Hole 3, not so bad.
Hole 4, shank the first ball off the tee. 4th lost ball. Hit my third shot off the tee, pull it, gone. 5th lost ball.
Go to hole 5. Wind is pretty big, so I hit my 2i, and now I'm about 168 to the back of the green, uphill with a little wind in the face. So I take a 7i. Sail over the green. No lost ball, but what the hell?
Hole 6. Hit a really shitty tee shot, but I'm okay. Hit my 7i to land "short" of the green. Nope. Pull draw it and I'm wet. (and in golf, "wet" is bad). 6th lost balls. Two sleeves. Averaging one per hole now. Doing well.
Hole 7. 8i that goes about 10 yards too far. Again, what the hell.
Hole 8. Hit driver because at this point I don't care. I hit into the bunker to the left. I then took a 9i from 150 and sailed to the green, rolling off.
Hole 9. Did okay on this hole. Scored par, but didn't play like it.
Hole 10. Par.
So all in all, I went through two sleeves of balls. But let's get back to the topic -- I am not having fun. I work really hard, and I'm not having fun because the work doesn't result in anything. The sad part in all of this is while I have really started playing really poorly, my friend Paul has started playing really well. What this means is that he can't revel in his great play because I'm doing so crappy, and I can't enjoy what he's doing by the same token. I'd talk about Chris, but he doesn't play golf with us anymore. He's on the World Tour of Better Courses.
So I'm at a crossroads. I'm not going to keep playing a game that I'm not having fun at anymore. So here is the deal: I have until the end of July. If I'm not playing better and watching my handicap go down instead of up, I am going to put the sticks up for a while and find something more interesting to do with my time. Not because I'm a big quitter, but because I should be having FUN on my weekends, not making myself feel bad. And when I'm not improving, I feel bad.
So there it is -- Rick's challenge to himself. Let's see how Rick does.